natalyn

2006-03-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

I'm proud of SAJC dance

2006-02-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

Dead blog.

Byebye.

2006-02-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

I really got to record this date down.
1st February

because my mum went to Zouk with me.

Funky ma-ma.

We waited for a chance like this for months.
Because my dad is always in Singapore,
and my mum can't escape from my dad.

When we queued up to enter Zouk,
my mum was telling me..
"IF THEY CHECK MY ID, I'LL SAY "YOU BLIND UH?""
I was laughing when I passed them my IC.
and of course, they didn't ask for my mum's.

Hilarious mum.

The night went on, and we stayed at Mambo.
No offense, but I really do not like Mambo.
It's like laid back 60s songs that hit the records.
It's seriously not my type of music.
With all the hand-actions and funny rolling things,
I find myself laughing till my tummy hurts.

But my mum seems to enjoy it though.

When we went to Phuture,
she said the music SUCKS!

Bloody mum.
Don't know how to enjoy RNB.

Received a message from Daryl that Charlotte's puking.
Imagine my shock because she came late and didn't drink much.
Luckily Tim and Daryl were there to company her.

I sent her to her doorstep and after that, sent us home.
I have no idea what my mum was doing.
Guess she was drunk.
She couldn't support herself up the stairs.
She tripped and finally when she reached her room,
SHE PUKED.

Yuck.
and she blamed it on the cab ride.

Haha. Funny ma-ma.

More of a drinking session than dancing last night (again).

Man, I MISS DANCE SO MUCH!!!

No more tech class on Sunday due to their vetting.
2 weeks without working out, and i can see my tummy bulging...
even though it has always been there.
And it's Chinese New Year!!

This is bad.

Time to start losing weight.

2006-01-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah!

Babe's coming back tomorrow.
But he's also booking in tomorrow.

A happy yet sorrow occasion.

CNY has been really great this year,
except the fact that beng wasn't around.
Almost everyone asked me where he was,
and they were all shocked that he went to Malaysia.

I went for CNY celebration at AHS to watch my sister dance,

and went to SAV to watch my juniors dance.
I'm so happy to say that all my juniors improved on way or another.
It was lovely watching them dance in the Cultural center. (:

Oranges, love letters, pineapple tarts, etc.
I'm putting on so much weight now,
that I do not want to step up onto a scale and weigh myself.
I shall not elaborate much about CNY,
the pictures will show it all on how I spent my CNY.

"Some" pictures that lighten up my day.

Headed down to Phuture yesterday with Daryl and Charlotte.
Well, somehow I forced her to go down. Felt bad.
But hopefully Charlotte enjoyed herself.
Ezra signed us in as promised,
and Daryl was a poor soul to pay $28.

Justin was the photographer at Zouk yesterday,
and we took so many pictures there.
Pray that his boss doesn't scold him for taking the same group. (:
I will upload the pictures soon.

Well, to our surprise, Beng's other camp mates were there.
So we went to Phuture after drinking at Zouk.
Didn't really dance much though.
Don't know what's wrong with me too.
Haha.

The crowd yesterday was GREAT!
The ratio of guys to girls was approximately 3:1,
unlike the normal days whereby it's 10:1.
We all had our individual space to dance in,
and the dance floor was of a JUST-NICE kinda situation.
How I wish beng could be here,
then it will be of more fun. :(

Anyway,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
to all.

Enjoy yourself,
and collect lots and lots of ang baos. (:

2006-01-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

Babe's gone to Malaysia.

I'm depressed.

2006-01-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

Work's fine, money's coming in quickly. ( :

Watched movie with Kel yesterday.
"Cheaper by the Dozen 2"
Though it wasn't a very funny show,
but it displayed lots of love and support from the family.
Love these kind of shows. Hehe.

Seriously, I didn't know that I was going to club after that.
I was dressed up with long sleeves and skirts, my goodness. HOT!!
Charlotte and I head down to Black to find her friend, Billy.
Both of us didn't even require to take out our IC at Black.
Drinks were free too though! Haha! ( :
But it was like drinking soft drinks.

What can you expect from free flow, baby..

Haha.

Then me and Charlotte head down to Phuture as the music was bad.
To our surprise, we did not take out our IC again,
as it was the same bouncer that gave me the invites on Friday.

This is the EVER-FIRST time that me and Charlotte did not need to take out our IC to enter.

:)

Well, when we entered, Dinesh was spinning.
It was so DJ battle thingy going on, and it was quite cool.
Then the music turned on, and I saw Carmen with some SA people and friends.
Didn't dance until much later because the music was kinda bad at the start.

When me and Charlotte wanted to leave, saying "We'll leave at the next song."
Some great music was turned on, and I was dragged by Carmen to the dancefloor again.
Haha. Then I wanted to leave again, Charlotte's song was playing.
Haha, so we danced at the table.

We immediately left when the music changed,
heading down to Newton to eat as both of us were starved.
We helped Auntie to serve drinks to the customers. ( :
Ain't we helpful ? Hehe.

I love you, babe. always...

2006-01-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

Besides the free entry to Zouk, cam-whoring with Charlotte and seeing babe drunk on Friday,
Phuture was only so-so.
Somehow the music was kinda bad and I didn't even drink much.
The dance floor was so crowded that I didn't even want to dance.
It was infested with guys and sad to say, it's disgusting. Sausage-feast.
I stood there for a long time stoning and waiting for a better music.
Then comes the long story that I shall not disclose. (:

A collage of me and Charlotte.
in Zouk's toilet cubicle. Haha!

On Saturday, I wanted to head down to SAV at 10am, but my body only woke up at 9am.
After registering for basic theory at Eunos, I headed down to SAV.
Even though there wasn't any tech class, I went to see see look look around the school.
It looks new and that's all. and the dance studio is so PATHETIC!!!
Luckily the dancers get to use the Cultural Center, if not it'll be more slapping and banging.
The Cultural Center looks marvellous.
I guess that's the only thing in school that looks good.
It's like a mini Kallang theatre, with chairs and a relatively huge stage.
Weiliang, Amanda and me practised the jumbled-up NUS steps,
where me and Weiliang 'any-how any-how' managed to group the steps together.
It was really fun. (:

At night, Me and babe head down to Newton to give Liza a mini belated bday celebration.
We managed to make her cry by presenting her a cake at her house,
with Auntie, Gabriel, Louis, Joseph, Tim, Charlotte, Elizabeth, Beng and me.

I seriously hope she had enjoyed herself on Saturday.

Not long after that, we went down to Talkative (a pub) where we started drinking.
Babe was still suffering from a serious hangover so he didn't drink much that night.
I was made to sing, because none of them heard me sing before.
Well, I had the singer, Gabriel, the sing with me a Firehouse song. (:
The night went on, and Daryl, Donovan and Justin came down.
and we continued drinking and drinking and drinking until 4am.
Pictures of us at the pub.
This massive amount of us head down to Newton, and started drinking and eating.
It was a big mess as some were talking very loudly, and forcing each other to drink.
I love such a sight. (:
Me and beng left about 6 plus in the morning to catch some beauty sleep.

We woke up at 11am because neither of us could sleep.
After preparing myself, I took off the NUS with Sam.
Tech class was great today, because 5 of us went down. (:
YJ, Weiliang, Sam, Nicole and me!
YJ and Nicole left early because of work,leaving the 3 of us.
Danced to "Fardo", a cheorographed item from Zaini.
It was great, even though my steps are a little wishy-washy, because I wasn't sure.
I gave my 200% to dance and tried to hide all my uncertainties.
The people there are so good that I shall not compare myself with them,
I'll die of inferiority complex. Haha!

Weiliang and I were so dead at the end of the class,
that we sat down in the studio and started talking. Haha.
My bro came to fetch me after Sam took her bath. (:

My whole body is aching now, because of all the head swings and dancing.
My thighs are aching, my shoulder and neck requires some massage.
Every single part of my body is in pain.
But it feels really good to be living a healthy lifestyle now. Haha!

Okay. Time to hand back the computer to my brother. BYE!

2006-01-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

I miss dance so badly.

I miss being in the studio.

I miss having to rush down to the studio everyday after school to dance.
I miss memorising different steps everyday.
I miss performing in front of a crowd that appreciates.
I miss the cheers of people.
I miss talking to the dancers.
I miss the mess at the back of the room.
I miss the lovely and smelly dance studio.
I miss those times when we stay back until 10pm to dance.
I miss being frustrated with myself for not being able to remember.
I miss the Macdonald times we once had during rehearsals for Rapture.
I miss Subway cookies that the dancers munch on in b/w rehearsals.
I miss shopping with the dancers for attires.
I miss Zaki's saying of 5-6-7-8.
I miss everyone.

I miss having prom with the rest of the dancers.

I miss partying together with the dancers.

It sucks not to be able to see everyone everyday anymore.

No more the "HI _____ (name)!" and the friendly smile.

It's not that I miss school, in fact, I hate the sight of notes now.

But I miss everyone that's in school.

I miss SAJC @ Malan Road.

Some pictures to reminisce on

The performance at China Black last year.

The exco committee of SAJC Dance Society

Danceworks 2005

Sway @ Rapture

Before Rapture

Me and YJ's item

D-A-N-C-E

Dance FARE-WELL

Wanting's and Sam's item

Dance Farewell again

Dance EXCO 04-05

Kel's and Wanting's item.

@ RAPTURE

Kel's bday @ Kel's house

Dancers-and-Models-to-be

Wanting and me @ Farewell assembly

The dancers

LAST BUT NOT LEAST..

PROM

YJ and me

Me and Manda

Kel and me

PROM PARTY @ INDOCHINE.

How much time spent together in the year 2005 would never be forgotten.
And I will always be thinking about the wonderful times I once had with them.

I love you all!

2006-01-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

Guess what ?

I am sick, again.

The weather have changed, without much prior notice.
And my nose started flowing and my throat started hurting.
Even drinking 3 bottles of water a day, doesn't help much.

I went to work yesterday, even though I was feeling sick.
And this job that required me to talk the whole day,
made my throat and nose even worse.
I went home with a stuffed nose and bad throat.

I wanted to work today.

But.. the experience last night was terrible.

I woke up about 5am in the morning, with a ear that is stucked.
Have you ever entered a pressure difference,
and that your ears hurt like a bitch ?
An example would be diving or going on a plane.

Yes?

I had this feeling last night.
My ear was stucked,

and I started doing everything to clear my miserys,
such as blowing my nose and swallowing saliva.
But NOTHING worked.
I messaged babe and he was awake, luckily.
I told him that I was afraid that my ear drums have burst,
because I blew my nose too hard.
He calmed me down, telling me not to worry.

I took this major long time to get to bed,

hearing my brother's alarm going off.
I hear my sister packing up and getting ready for school.
It took me about an hour plus to get back to bed.
This totally sucks.

I woke up again about 7am and told my supervisor that I'm not going to work.

Then I went to see the doctor,
and luckily, the doctor say that there's nothing wrong with my ears.
so here I'm home, idling my day in front of the computer and tv.

I miss my babe, even though it was only 2 days ago.

It's such a long day today, the time passed so slowly.

A thought about it, it will only be another 5 months,

that he has nothing to do with SAF anymore.

That's because he's gonna ORD soon.

Yipee!

I was talking to Riena online just now,

and she sent me pictures of US a few years back.

She was like saying that we both look like we had plastic surgery,

because none of the pictures look like us at all now.

It was quite hilarious looking at old pictures and LAUGH.

One picture that she sent to me.

The picture is quite blur though.

That's me and Riena.
I'm on the left.

This is riena and me NOW.
Just look at the difference. Haha!

It feels good to take out old pictures,
to see either how stupid, fat and ugly you once looked.
Haha. I shall upload some pictures of the past next time.
I'm sure you'll laugh until your arse is off the chair. <3

2006-01-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

Life is getting a little better for me at this point of time.
I got myself a new job, without quitting the one at Penny Black.
It's some telemarketing job which enquires me to survey bank users.
Sad to say, it's a boring job.
But, it is very profitable if you work hard everyday.
If I get bored of this job, I'll go back to Penny Black. ( :

Well, I wanted so badly to blog on Sunday.
But babe's computer somehow got screwed up.
In the midst of blogging for the first time, it hanged.
At the second time I blogged and clicked "Publish Post",
it hanged AGAIN!
The worst thing is that I blogged approximately an hour for each entry,
and the entry was so damn long!
I seriously wanted to smash his computer. Haha.

Ookay.

After the hiatus of 7 months,
I went NUS dance ensemble on Sunday, FINALLY!
It felt so great to be dancing cheoro-ed dance again,
not to say freestyle dancing at clubs perk my nights.
The stretching, the leaps, the turns around the room was marvellous.
I realised how relaxed I've been at SA dance.
I guess this is what they call by TECH class.
It really trains my flexibility and work me out at the same time.
And I just realised how unfit I am.
My thighs are aching and I am walking like a penguin.
I'll be heading down again on Sunday,
and I hope this time, more people will come down. ( :

My brother was supposed to join me that day,
but when the class started,
he somehow disappeared into thin air.
Crazy brother.
Anyway congrads bro for passing your license. ( :
The next one is me, I guess.

Anyway, babe drove that night to meet our friends.
It was my ever first time sitting at the passenger seat,
and I realised that my bf has finally passed his license.
It was great to be one of the first person in the passenger seat.
muackz*

I'm too lazy to actually post all the pictures of Thailand,
so I'll just post a few pictures of my trip there.

babe ate CRICKETS!!!!!!!!!!
This totally gave me the creeps.
And the worst thing is that he actually wanted me to eat it,
saying that it taste like fried prawns. *eeerrmm*

This is before we went for Thai massage,
that we have to wash our feet.
Look at babe's expression, haha.
Now, I know how to wake him up from his deep sleep.
Haha! ( :

Erm, we were at the playground at the airport,
with babe being the driver of a giant toy car because he just passed his license.
When we were leaving, we saw this message on this board,
stated that "This playground is for kids below 9 years old"
so babe has to act like a 9 years old kid, and had to be shorter than the red line above.
Haha! I guess we were too excited about boarding the plane. ( :

This is our first night there, the time we reached the hotel.
We wanted to take the huge traffic jam below,
but it was too dark, so that's why it's us!

Ookay, that's it. I'll post the rest another day. ( :

Now, let me do some sales.

THANKS!

2006-01-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

a Happy New Year to all.

I spent it with my loveliest babe, family and friends.
We had the nagger, the stoner, the drinkers, the smokers, the gamblers, the PS2-ers.
But it was great fun with them, talking with them until 8am in the morning,
drinking beer, whisky and eating lots of bbq-ed food.
I love you guys! =)
A collage made by Charlotte.

I had this talk with babe that night,
it made me cry, it made me sob,
but it also made me think about what I've done.
I guess it's my fault, not making an effort to do anything about my friendships.
Or maybe I'm just trying too hard to be in a clique where I don't belong.
Being an introvet, I do not really like to talk about my problems,
and rather keep it all in myself before bursting it out when I couldn't take it any longer.
I really like to go out with my friends,
though I do not like to talk,
but I love to hear what people say.
When they are happy, I'm happy.
and it's really true.
I hope everyone understands me,
and of course, I'll try my best to understand them.

The bunch of us went to Zouk on Friday,
and it was really fun.
I really love going to club with babe and his friends,
and not mentioning my lovely Charlotte was there too!
and well, she got drunk. Haha!
What a sight.
The ever first time I got to see Charlotte drunk,
after she witnessing me drunk TWICE! in a month. Haha!
Another time this coming Friday,
and I guess it's time for someone else to get drunk. =)

Charlotte and me

It's 2006 and it's time to consider what I really want to do in my life.
I think my A levels are screwed enough and I will not have any chance into entering uni.
I'm considering taking up dance courses and improving myself so that I can be a teacher,
but at the same time, I'm reluctant to teach and rather be a professional dancer.
But with all my technique now, i doubt that anyone wants me in their crew.
I guess I got to start losing weight and train up.
I really want to be a dancer, but sometimes it's hard to keep up with the rest.
I know I can't be as good as the rest, but I guess I got to be confident with myself.

Dance isn't what they do, it's who they are.

A second choice would be taking over my dad's business.
Learning what I can about his business, and being his right hand man.
But I still prefer to dance and be active.
I don't know whether I should follow my instincts and do what I want,
because I don't know whether it's right.
Someone told me to do what interests me in my life,
instead of what someone tells me to do.
I wonder what should I do.

But for all I know,
I love my babe.

I really got to thank Justin for giving me that huge birthday present.
It was no dinner, but a mega surprise to me.
We had a PHOTOSHOOT!!
and Justin, being the photographer was making fun of babe.
I shall post the pictures online when Justin's done editting them.
JUSTIN, THANKS so so so so so much!
I have no idea how to show my gratitude.
All I can say is thanks. =)

2005-12-29T04:42:00.000+08:00

I know I should be sleeping right now, but I can't.
Too many thoughts are running through my head right now,
that I can't think straight. My mind's in a swirl.
I confided in Charlottle just now, maybe what she said was right.
Maybe I should go, to salvage any friendship that's left.
But I'm still in a dilemna.
Oh God, please save me from these sufferings.
Let me have some peace of mind.
Why do I have to suffer such fate?
Why am I forsaken by you, dear God.
Can you ease me from these sufferings,
and let me be a better person?
Oh God, save me. I'm crazy. I'm running out of my mind.

Babe's going to bring me to dinner tomorrow.
He doesn't want to tell where and what?
He just kept telling me to wear something casual smart.
I have no idea what he wants me to wear.
I love surprises, but I'm so eager to know what's up,
because I hate to be kept in suspense. Irritating babe.

I got to catch some beauty sleep now. Love you all who's reading. =)

2005-12-28T12:35:00.000+08:00

Everyone thinks that I'm a happy-go-lucky girl,
but how many of them actually know who am I ?
How many of them actually know me ?
Without even the count of my fingers, I can count none.
I have no purpose in my miserable life.
My mum told me,
"If they dont treasure you as a friend, what for you try to be friends with them?"
Come to think about it, I think what my mum say is really true.
like what's the point right ? I really don't know.

Yes, I know it's dangerous babe,
but it's something I like, something I enjoy.
Not that I drink, not that I dance with anyone else.
I love to dance, and that's what I do.
I understand what you say,
but it's different....
You guys drink, I don't.
I dance, you guys don't.
But when I go with her, I know we will dance.
Like dancing the whole night.
You know what I mean, babe?
I love you always.

2005-12-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

It seems how everyone remembers Christmas, and forgot that it's my birthday.
For those who did remember, thank you.

Well, I can say it's the worst Christmas ever for me.
(besides the point that babe was by my side all the while)

2005-12-23T15:48:00.000+08:00

Things became much clearer now, to who are my true friends.
I chose not to believe babe when he told me that long time ago.
But now, what he said really gave me a wake up call.
Sadly to say, I have none.
It's really hurting though, but I've learned to accept the truth.

I guess that explains alot.

2005-12-17T14:10:00.000+08:00

Life is full of hurdles for me at this point of time,
I have to sort out alot of my feelings
because I'm not so sure anymore.
Maybe we're just not meant to be.
A time off would be good to cool off some steam.
But true enough,
I still love him....

I met up with Eric yesterday
when my phone died of no battery.
Booglie's such a nice place to slack,
with funny people to talk to, especially Patricia.
Drank a pine of Hoegarden and head to Eric's place.
We caught up with each other's life,
and him telling me all the things that he did for a girl.
It was so sweet and how I wish someone would do that to me too.
Turning up at the door, with flowers in hand,
asking if we can go out together.
Or, turning up at unexpected times, surprising me.
Oh well, it's just hard to find a guy like him.
He's really my good friend, always there to hear my troubles.
Thanks Eric.

I messaged Boxun, asking him to meet me,
but he was at a wake.
When I told him I was at ECP,
he rushed down after the wake,
and ran from one end to another to look for me.
He actually called my house, since he couldn't contact me.
My mum was frantically looking for me too.
Well, I just needed to cool off.
But my mum messaged Botak,
telling him what a great friend he was
and thanks for being there
when her daughter (me) needed some guidance.
Seriously speaking,
Boxun has been a great friend for the past years,
since I've known him in secondary school.
He's like another brother to me.
I love him! Well, brotherly-sisterly love.
By the way, he's not my type I'll like. Haha.

When I reached Eric's house, and went online.
My sister told me Boxun called the house.
Then I called Boxun and he was still at ECP looking for me
despite me telling him to go home earlier and that I'm fine.
He's just a sweet brother. Thanks dude.
Study hard. I'll see ya soon after your exams.

Just a kind remainder...

INVIGORATE @ gotham penthouse

xmas party on 22nd Dec
hiphop and r&b 9pm till late
like a song? SEND US YOUR REQUEST(S)

we'll bring in a guest DJ to play emjust
so you can party

$16 presale, $18 at door
inclusive of 1 free drink
clubbing on a budget?
only the best drink deals!
$5 SHOTS and 1 FOR 1 JUGS ALL NITE LONG!
[bottles are $120]you got that right,
ALL night.no bullshit party.
your fav songs.
PLUS your fav drinks, cheap.

contact natalyn@98416381 for details

2005-12-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

I think I'm going to message everyone that I know about this party.
This is when I'm going to celebrate my advanced birthday party.

INVIGORATE @ gotham penthouse

xmas party on 22nd Dec
hiphop and r&b 9pm till late
like a song? SEND US YOUR REQUEST(S)

we'll bring in a guest DJ to play emjust
so you can party

$16 presale, $18 at door
inclusive of 1 free drink
clubbing on a budget?
only the best drink deals!
$5 SHOTS and 1 FOR 1 JUGS ALL NITE LONG!
[bottles are $120]you got that right,
ALL night.no bullshit party.
your fav songs.
PLUS your fav drinks, cheap.

contact daren@97253138 for details

I really hope everyone that I know go for this party.
Love you all. Take care.

2005-12-14T13:01:00.001+08:00

I just came back from Bangkok.
I really shopped till i dropped.
Let me count...

I bought..
4 slippers
3 bags
3 skirts
4 dresses + 1
5 bangles
5 belts
lots of ear rings
lots of tops

What a retail therapy.
It felt damn good! =)

After a strenous retail therapy,
we had a full Thai massage.
well, TWICE. haha.
I'll upload the pictures soon. =)

Beer was about a dollar plus SING.
So somehow beng treated it like mineral water,
and I drank a little too.
Singha, Chang, Hein.
I'm starting to like beer. Haha.
I'll post about the rest soon.
I'm so lazy now.

This picture is taken at Indochine,
taken during the Post prom party,
using Jilyn's camera. =)

Jilyn, Weiliang, Natalyn, Wanting

2005-12-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought that you have everything,
but the truth remains that you have actually nothing to depend on?
Why does the truth hurt so badly that it pains my heart each time.
Why must I discover that I'm not being loved,
not actually being treated like a human with their own pair of wings.
As much as I hate to believe,
I am alone, in this insolated world.
I'll never have happiness, not as much as I want to have.

I have nothing in my life.
I have a sad childhood, with practically no friends.
I had this question once, just that day.
"Who are your best friends?"
I stared blankly and didn't answer.
At that point of time, I had a lump of sorrowness in my heart.
I actually tear-ed, but in my broken heart.
It's sad but it's true.
I have no best friends. A f***ing sad life.
(Pardon me for my language)
It's just a mask covering up who I am.
I am not me when I'm out.
No one hears me crying in my room.
No one can see me feeling depressed.

When I thought friends ain't everything,
because I have a boyfriend,
that I thought will always be my side.
I wonder if sometimes I'm wrong or I'm blinded to see.
I don't know if he's the right one for me.
When things screw up, I have nothing left.
It's like my whole life just collapsed and disintergrate into thin air.
I'm a goner, I want to leave.

I thought I'll be happy because of the Thailand trip.
But maybe everything's a fraud.
I'm starting to suspect about my everything.
I don't want to go to Thailand now.
I don't know how to face it.

2005-12-06T14:36:00.000+08:00

Prom was great.
The after-party was even better.
Besides the 9 course dinner which was not filling,
and the gastric pain I had in the club,
the night was totally great.
I didn't know there were so many pretty girls in school.
They were all dressed up in their prettiest gowns,
and smiling throughout the whole prom with loads of cameras.
All so pretty. =)

Went to Newton Circus after the party.
Met up with Liza and Gabriel,
Uncle was "drunk" and he was talking rubbish.
It was so hilarious and stuff. =)
Slept for an hour at the hotel
before coming home at 930am.
Showered and went out with my mum for breakfast.

My gastric really hurts like a BITCH!
I ate medicine and it's not getting better.
This totally sucks.
I need my babe!

Army is driving me nuts!!
I want to meet up with my babe,
but then he has to STAY IN now!
The end of 3 weeks of "holidays".
And I got a personal driver already,
because he passed his driving license!
*MUACKZ!* I love him la!

He's going to book out tomorrow and on thursday.
and friday,
THAILAND, HERE WE GO!!!!!

Pictures for prom

Before prom

top view

my lovely hair

on the way to grand corp

i love my eyes.

i look nuked. hahah! but i'm wearing a tube.

Dressing up

THE DANCERS

jackie and me

wanting and me

kelly and me

me and wanting

At prom

Dancers

dance table

jess and me

yijun wanting sam and me

me yijun and kelly

me yijun kelly amd manda

me yijun kelly and manda

hsin yi and me

manda carmen jackie and me

yong huay and me

samantha and me

wanting and me

us again

sam and me

yijun and me

us again

me and doreen

jackie and me

wanting and me

pretty wanting

me and sam

hsin yi and me

yijun and me

me and jess

me and manda

sam is yee-you-yee. =)

sweet jess is posing.

04S13

04S13

jingwen, lingling and me

us again

lingling and me

me and jingwen

me and jingwen

kenneth and me

merjahn and me (failed picture 1)

merjahn and me (failed picture 2)

merjahn and me (failed picture 3)

me and rudy

me and shaun
look! we're the same height.

rudy and me again

mejahn and me

lingling jingwen and me

mer and law

mer me and law
i'm the WHITEST!

mer jingwen and law

Prom king

the perfect couple

andrew and wanting

andrew and wanting

andrew and yijun

andrew and me

Saints

me and clara

carmen and me

justin and me

jie and me

me and stella

me and alex

me and ger

bryan and me

me and yuan shen

me and carmen

cheryl and me

me and greg

hamdi and me

we went for the same tuition for 4 years!
BELIEVE IT! =)

me and shawn

alison me and ven

carmen and me

me and leon

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT. HELP!!!!! =(

I'm so bloody fat with all the tummies and flabby arms.
I think I shall start dieting NOW!

2005-12-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

I NEVER EVER felt so bad before in my entire 18 years.
I went to Zouk last night and I got totally drunk.
D-R-U-N-K!
I was puking all over the place,
at the river, at the tents, in the toilet.
My head was so drowsy,
everything around me was spinning.
And now, I'm having the worst headaches of my life.
The typical hang-over,
with all disgusting taste of alcohol in my mouth.
Nothing I eat could cover that disgusting taste.
I WILL NEVER EVER DRINK SO MUCH AGAIN!
This is the first time I didn't even dance in the club.
Drink. Drank. DRUNK! yuck!
I will boycott drinking for a short while.

I went to Malacca during the weekends.
Took 300++ pictures which I've uploaded online.
I shall photoshop it soon, being lazy and all.
We did alot of things, all fun and crazy. =)

Vetting was great. =)
J1s, you guys are like crazy.
Haha! I love you all!

Sometimes I wonder if I can postpone the Thailand trip.
All I can say now is thanks to Zaki.
I hope there are more chances like that. =)

2005-11-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry if the entry takes a long time to load,
because there are quite a number of pictures today.

I HIGHLIGHTED MY HAIR TODAY!!, like finally.
But it's not purple because I got to bleach it,
and I don't want to ruin the condition of my hair.
I got it in brown strips. =)

Pictures that we just took,
me and my crazy sister.

Me, with my new hair colour.

The back if I tie it up.

The favourite picture taken with my sister.
It seriously show how terrified I am about her.

I'm touching her *****s in space

Our hump.
But I dont have. Haha.

Big fat arse.

Who's tongue is longer ?

Yucks!
*She's not touching me.

EeEEeeeee...

I am bored of her self-obsession.

Haha.

My tongue is disgustingly long.

Sadako anyone?

1

2

3

4

10-5

6

7

8

9

I found a part time job.
I'm working at boat quay,
a restaurant cum pub named Penny Black.
Posh atmosphere,
a perfect place to chill out.
Wanting, Yijun, Sin Wee and me took the job.
Went for my first day today.
Thanks to Ayu (my mentor) and all the people there.
They are all so friendly and warm. =)
First day of work is always tough,
BUT!! It is not as tough as at Zara. Hee.

Friday was the last paper.
I went out with babe to town.
Then we head down to Newton for some poh pian.
Joseph drove us to Marina South for bowling.
Haha, I swear, I hate to bowl.
Guess my points. It's the worse I've even seen.
31 points!! Haha.
I don't think I ever wanna bowl again.
I even lose to Liza meimei, who is just 11 years old. Haha!

On Saturday, I had a BBQ at my house.
Ed, Yani, Pat, Nic, Dawn, Don, Jo, Tim and Louis came.
Next was the booze.
Most of them left, except for the 6 of us.
We didn't drink much actually.
with just a bottle of chivas, that was GOOD!

My lovely boy, setting up the fire.

Chivas anyone?

Me and babe

Babe, me, Joseph

Me, Jo, Louis

Me, trying to eat a HOT hotdog.

Introducing.. Louis and Timonthy

Joseph is going to sleep soon...

Have you seen people playing soccer on a 61 inch TV?

At 3am in the morning?

Me and Tim.

Winning eleven.

Louis and me.

I was so tired, I slept.

Recently, I found out that people like "before" and "after" pictures.
So I did exactly the same to my room.
I revamped my room, all hailed my "dnt"-ed mummy.

Before

After.

I love my new revamped room.
Yeah! =)

Remember about the dress that I bought.
Since he transferred me the money already,
I would like to scold him.
He has a ****-face, with disgusting teeth.
I hate him. Although he has nice stuff,
But NEVER buy things from this guy.
He went back on his word,
didn't pick up my phone calls,
didn't reply my messages.
Click here to see who he is.
>....
I spent 4 bucks on his mistake,
and I would NEVER repeat that mistake again.

Luckily today, the things that I ordered online came.
Boy am I happy to see all the clothes.
They fit well and it cost only 42 dollars.
2 tops and 1 skirt. Haha! Lovely.

Alright. I shall end my entry today. Bye!
Work again tomorrow.

2005-11-18T18:52:00.000+08:00

My ever first online shopping experience,
the first time I actually felt cheated.
This totally sucks like shit man!
SUCKS!
Luckily, I spotted some factory defects with my bionic eyes.
Haha!! =x

A LEVELS IS OVER!

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-11-17T11:11:00.000+08:00

It's finally ending tomorrow.
It's a moment of truth and freedom.
I can finally be true to myself,
and stop burying my pea brain in the books,
that I think that I have no future with.
I can finally use my two feet to do something useful,
like dancing a cheorographed dance.
Something that I have been pending to do.
Club dancing seems so boring,
because of the limited space.

Being on stage is so much different.
There's something to look forward to,
and I can't wait to start dancing again.
I'm going for the SAdance vetting on the 30th,
gonna pressurized the JC1s. Haha!
They are coming up with so many different types of dances,
and I want to join them!!!!
There's ballet on pointe, hip hop, contemp, sexy, traditional.
I want to join ALL OF THEM!
But it's not up to me to choose. Haha.
I hope Zaki allows alumni to dance in the J2 items next year.

I saw ZAKI on tvmobile yesterday,
it made me realise how MUCH I miss dance and all his screamings.
He was, as usual, bitchy to all the contestants.
I was laughing so loudly in the bus,
I guess people sitting around me must be thinking that I'm NUTS.
Haha.

I bought my prom dress already, online.
I have an idea of how i'll look. Yea!

2005-11-15T18:06:00.000+08:00

I had a fruitful online shopping trip.
I actually bought 4 pieces of cloth for about 50 bucks.
Now I feel guilty for not studying. Just kill me.

I was reading through my notes,
then I fall asleep, like drop dead on bed for half an hour.
Then I started reading again,
then I started choerographing a stupid RNB dance.
Then I started reading again,
I started using make-up to ruin my face.
Then I started reading again,
and now I'm here, rotting.

This totally sucks man.
Tomorrow's a major paper for me,
and all I'm doing is rotting in front of the computer.
This is making me so guilty and I feel like dying.
I think too much of physics is making me eccentric.

The only thing that keeps me going is..
2 more papers down and I'm a free woman. (: Haha!

2005-11-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so deprived of shopping
that I'm frantically finding clothes on yahoo auction.
Haha! It's so fun buying things online,
browsing through various pages in search of something nice.
Haha! I just dragged Yijun into it too. =x

And dont remind me about Physics paper 3 tomorrow.
I'm screwed for A levels.

2005-11-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

I know I should be studying at this instance,
but I'm getting a headache just by reading the formulae.
I was looking through my sister's computer,
and I found these pictures.

There was a "typhoon" that day when I was studying.
The rain was moving horizontally,
and everyone who was walking through the building
was soaking wet and it was disgusting.
My sister took pictures after the storm.
The view was so beautiful..
Lucky sister..

Finished the second paper today.
I can only say that it's all pure luck now.
I hope I don't screw up anymore of my papers.
But I can't say the papers are hard,
neither can I say that it's easy.
I hope I can do well.

2005-11-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

11 more days!

and f-r-e-e-d-o-m.

Good luck to everyone..

2005-11-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

A levels is driving me nuts,
but i can taste freedom at the back of my throat.
2 more weeks and it's all over.

I wonder is it me, or is it the A levels' stress.
I have no mood to study at all!
When I opened my book this afternooon,
I actually felt like sleeping,
I really slept! This is totally bad.
I need to stay focus and persevere on.
Tomorrow's the last day before my life changes.

And ya, my lovely mum agreed to club with me after my A levels.
Mambo, here we gOooOO!

2005-11-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

I would like to start my entry by saying..

Happy 18th birthday, Sam!

I'm sorry you can't have your wish that you told me,
because all of us are digging our heads hard on books,
and hopefully we can do well for A levels.

It's already the last league of the race,
and it's going to be judgement day soon,
merely 5 more days.
and 16 more days before the END of A LEVELS!
Horray!

Something bad happened to me today,
while i was walking out of school,
I pulled my sling bag like I always did,
and it SNAPPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My lovely bag is ruined.
I only bought it for less than 2 months!
I'm so depressed. :(
Stupid prelim papers!

This song keeps replaying in my head,
I simply love it so so so so much!
It's kinda old, but ya, I love it.

Lifehouse - You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

J2s, study hard!
J1 dancers, dance well!

2005-10-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

Look at 2 of my beautiful cousins.
The 2 asian-looking girls inside.

You two better get your arse down to Singapore soon!
I miss you two. :)

2005-10-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited about after A levels.
Babe is following me to Thailand,
he applied leave. :)

Last night, we webcam-ed.
and I tell you, we are so crazy lah.
We did so many stupid things,
and I swear, I can blackmail him,
for the rest of my life. Haha.
I love him lah.

Anyway, do not put me at home.
I'll become crazy like this...

Haha.

2005-10-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

I feel so trapped, confined, depressed.
I need enjoyment, shopping and alcohol.

I wanna club.
I wanna drink.
I wanna shop.
I wanna sleep.
I want my freedom.
I want A levels to end N-O-W!

I hate to study.
I hate my life right.

It's not one of those PMS spells once again,
but I'm feeling neglected.

2005-10-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

The Farewell Assembly 2005.
It brings back many fond memories back in SAJC.
To think, 2 years of school came to an end just like that,
and now we're on our own in this big world.
We're going to be adults,
no longer teenagers.
Apparently, no more teachers will make you leave the classroom,
no more teachers to scold you.
Everything's on our own.
I hate this feeling.

The foyer where people stood when they were late,
the stick-man and home of the saints t-shirt.
The final year at Malan road before the official move in December to SAV.
I'll miss SAJC in Malan road, where I have to wake up at 545am every morning,
and get my arse down to dreadful school.

Dancers.
We're been through so much together.
Crawling under the school gates,
with luggages and bags.
Walking into school with our home clothes on Saturdays,
not giving a damn about the security guard.
The 2 concerts that I had with you guys,
changing backstage and stripping infront of each other.
I'll miss it so much.
I'm serious. I love you guys.
I'm sorry if I didn't take pictures with anyone else.
I couldn't find the rest of you. =)

Next, my love class. 04S13.
Well, it has been great having a class like that.
I love all of you, I'll never forget you guys.
Especially our clique.
Lingling, Jingwen, Ruishan, Shaun, Kenneth, Rudy and Merjahn, Lawrence.
You guys have been great!
Too bad my camera ran out of battery,
if not I would have taken more pictures.

Last but not least,
All those who had made my stay in SAJC warm,
I love all of you guys too!
Study hard!!

Special thanks to the fruit stall UNCLE,
for providing me with the nicest fruit juices and everything!
I've been patronising his stall every single day!
I'll miss his drinks too. Haha!

Some happy moments at home.

I shall say this once and for all.
That shirt that beng is wearing, isn't his. Right bro?
Haha!

College song

Lives are in the making here
Hearts are in the waking here
Mighty undertaking here
Up and on!
Up and on!
We are arming for a fight
Pressing on with all our might
Pluming wings for higher flight
Up and on!

Chorus:
Up saints!
Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game
Keep the flame burning brightly ever

Fair before us lies the way
Time for work and time for play
Fill the measure while we may
Up and on!
Up and on!

Chorus:
Up saints!
Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game
Keep the flame burning brightly ever

Foes in plenty we shall meet
Hearts courageous scorn defeat
So we press with eager feet
Up and on!
up and on!
Ever onward to the fight
Ever upward to the light
Ever true to God and right
Up and on!

Chorus:
Up saints!
Truest fame lies in high endeavour
Play the game
Keep the flame burning brightly ever

College Hymn

Our Father, by whose servants
Our school was built of old
Whose hand hath crowned thy children
With blessings manifold
For thy unfailing mercies
Far strewn along our way
With all who passed before us
We praise thy name today

They reap not where they laboured
We reap what they hath sown
Our harvest may be garnered
By ages yet unknown
The days of old hath dowered us
With gifts beyond all praise
Our Father make us faithful
To serve the coming days

Before us and beside us
Still holden by thy hand
A cloud of unseen witness
Our elder comrades stand
One family unbroken
We join with one acclaim
One heart, one voice uplifting
To glorify thy name

2005-10-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

My pictures are all gone.
Those from Quidam, NUS and lots more.
All hail my stupidity!

But I got some pictures taken randomly of my house,
and my dad's office a.k.a my study area,
when my dad's out of town.

This is one of my favourite bracelet from my dad's office.
I think it's colourful and stunning.
Well so is the price.

My lovely mother,
being vain.
But I still love her so. *muack

Studying mode has be turned on,
A levels are so near,
and all i think of is CLUBBING.
Why why why!

Besides all that crap,
I have 2 new wishes.
Firsty,
I want to be stick-thin.
Those that know me know that it's impossible,
because I'm always HUNGRY.
But that's my wish and resolution for the new year.
I shall start dieting after As. Haha!
Secondly,
I hope to join NUS dance ensemble.
I have been thinking about recently.
All thanks to Glenn.
But I don't think I have the calibre to join.
Looking at the dancers from that society.
I feel so inferior, fat and lousy.
It really sucks man.

Why can't I be a great dancer that I want to be?

2005-10-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

For the past 6 days,
my life has been

AWESOME

Special thanks to..

1) Beng
2) Mum and Nal
3) QUIDAM
4) Liquid room and Cocco Latte
5) NUS Dance Ensemble concert,

Beng has been companying me
since the day I didn't attend school.
I love him.
Too bad, he's back in camp. =(

Mummy and Nal for going to Quidam with me.
THE SHOW WAS *mouth agape*.
I remembered how I once dreamed to be in a circus.
But I was too old then,
and I knew that my bones will break.

Talking about Liquid room,
it was Hanxiong's belated bday,
and he was totally G-O-N-E.
Well, I danced for 3 hours,
it was jammed pack.
Guess that's the subsitute of the Phuture crowd.
And we saw quite a number of people there,
especially babe's gay friends.
Haha, just kidding.
They were just gay with each other.
Hugging and touching one another. *Yuck! haha.
And while I was dancing, one girl kept elbowing me,
and I almost fall onto my friend.
Gab got angry and confronted her several times.
What a spoilage! Ruined my night.
Head down to Cocco Latte after Liquid closed.
Woah! I love to dance!!
Do not ever stop me from dancing!

Last but not last,
The Annual...
NUS DANCE ENSEMBLE CONCERT
What can I say about it.
It made me drool..
How I wish I could actually perform for them.
Well, if I'm up to their standard, of course.
Somehow when I was watching,
it made me realise how LOUSY I am.
And ya, something to highlight about.
Glenn and Bryan wore underwears,
after stripping down from a suit.
And they were so sexy.
Glenn was wearing a RED one.
HAHA! He's so gonna kill me if he reads this.
Zaki used Rapture's ballet item song. Serenity.
And the first part of his dance, somehow,
reminded me of the ballet item,
where Me, Wanting and Kelly will come out and dance.
MEMORIES.. Post Rapture Syndrome is kicking back again.. :(
Dewi, Shiping, Sandy, Yanling, Glenn, Bryan, Zaini
What can I say about them..
THEY ARE JUST AWESOME!

*Pictures will be uploaded soon for Quidam and NUS.

With some much fun,
I can hardly wait for the end of A levels....

2005-10-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

I finally got my camera back.
and on that day,
we took quite a number of pictures.

and yesterday,
We celebrated our anniversary.

I haven't got the chance to take pictures of beng's wardrobe,
because I and him packed it nicely.
But i finally took it, yesterday,
with my LONG-LOST camera.

Isn't that nice?

QUIDAM

tomorrow. can't wait.

2005-10-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

I'm going to spoil myself for once,
and go watch QUIDAM.
Booked 3 tickets for me mum and nal.
Ahhh.. I can't wait for this SATURDAY at 4pm!

Anyway, my sister just told me a website of my ballet teacher.
It reminded me about me back then. Haha.
So I've editted a picture,
showing me and my sis like 4 years back?

click on the image to see actual size

Haha, me and my sister were FAT,
but luckily both of us slimmed down.
=) I love my sister.
Look at her now,
she's so cute and chubby.

click on the picture for her blog

Time is short,
I shall start studying now.

2005-10-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

Like I said, we took alot of pictures.

I don't feel myself today.
I feel sad and sensitive.
Everything seems upside down.
I argued with beng last night,
and it isn't going very well.
I'm so sure it isn't PMS,
because it's just me.
I'm not degrading myself
and as a matter of fact,
i hate myself.
i really do..

2005-10-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to Kelly, Grace and Belinda.
who have their birthday's on Children's day.

The 13 of us surprised Kelly at her place today.
All thanks to Wanting, Manda, Yi jun and Andrew,
that planned everything from scratch.
We met early at Habour front, took a bus to Canadian Pizza,
where we BLEW balloons and collected the pizzas.
We took 4 garbage bags from Canadian,
and we threw all the balloons inside.
Yijun thought that 3 recycling bags are enough
to contain 100 balloons! Hmmm...

We took a bus, where the bus driver got pissed,
as we were hand-filled with garbage bags
and there wasn't even place for the passengers
to alight or board the bus.
Then we walked into her house.
Andrew was distracting her with loud music.
Balloons flying and ribbons on our heads.
'Knock. Knock'.

BOO! There we are.
and everything went as planned.
We took TONNES of pictures, and i mean tonnes.
Shall upload it soon. It's with wt and kel.

Met mum at Parkway and shopped.
Didn't buy anything because nothing caught my fancy.

Well, I've been thinking.
I've never had a birthday that I would smile from the heart,
get touched by the soul and be happy within.
I've cried on my birthday before, so many times.
I hate my birthday, how I wish I didn't even have one to begin with.
It made me think of what type of a person am I.
I guess I'm not even fit to be a human.
At least, humans have friends.

I always wondered why do I smile when I'm not even happy.
I always thought I'm a HAPPY-GO-LUCKY person,
but it turns out otherwise.
I hate myself for being me.

2005-09-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

I got back all my results,
besides the usual F for General Paper,
my grades improved from BT2,

Mathematics - C
Physics - O
Chemistry - O

I know my grades might not be acceptable,
well, in my eyes of my brother,
but I'm quite satisfied that my grades had some improvements.
This calls for more hardwork
in the last 40 days before A levels.

It's kinda freaking me out,
I'm not even tuned back into my studying mode yet.
I can't open a book and start studying,
without falling asleep..
Even machines need rest,
not to mention a human.

My mummy messaged me today,
telling me that my sister sprained her ankle
after landing awkwardly,
when she was running down a flight of steps.
It somehows bring back memories of me last year,
when I sprained my ankle at TJC during a rehearsal.
Haha, I collaged the pictures together.

Haha, I feel evil.
But no matter what, I still love her.
And I bought her SUBWAY cookies!

Pictures for my aunt's wedding on Sunday.

I know, my hair is disgustingly ugly.
Don't you think my little cousin is very cute ?
She looks like a little princess.
She doesn't scream, she doesn't make any noise.
She speaks very softly and she is indeed very sweet.
Beng likes her dearly and she does it too.
He always carry her around.
Just like a little angel.
I'm envious of him,
because every kid will cry when they see me. :(

J1s, good luck for your PROMOs!

Back to the books now.

2005-09-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Natalyn
2) Nat
3) Meimei

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) Natalyn
2) Nat
3) Nat

PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) Eyes
2) Ears
3) nothing else

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) Thighs
2) Arms
3) Tummy

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) COCKROACHES
2) Lizards
3) Being disappointed

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) Beng
2) Wallet
3) FREE time

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) Micro-mini shorts
2) Beng's tshirt
3) Pokey shoes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1) ..
2) ..
3) EVERYTHING! except punk and hard rock

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1) If I was the one
2) Sway (Pussycat dolls)
3) LOTS MORE!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) Trust
2) Maturity
3) Love each other wholeheartedly

THREE UNKNOWN TRUTHS OR LIES:
1) I was once a prefect in Primary school
2) I fall down from a monkey bar and ...
3) I can sleep for 12 hours straight

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Smile
2) Funny
3) Nice hair

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) DANCING
2) SHOPPING
3) CLUBBING

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) SLEEP
2) club
3) drink

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1) Accountant
2) Chemical engineer
3) Air stewardess

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Paris
2) Australia
3) Thailand + Malaysia

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) My dream (something that i'm shy to say)
2) Watch all movies in the cinema
3) Shop till my legs drop out

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1) Insensitive
2) MCP
3) I'm always right

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1) Love to shop
2) Never fails to gossip
3) Dress up

My results totally suck,
I think I'm going to be so screwed up for As.
But no point regretting now,

I SHALL START STUDYING AT THIS INSTANCE..

2005-09-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

Results are out and I "achieved" the same results that I've got. Although the grades are the same, but I see a leap of 5-6 marks. That's pathetic. I'm wondering how will I EVER pass my A levels with those type of results I'm obtaining. It's not that I'm not working hard enough. My mummy said that I'm pushing myself too hard, and I might cause a mental breakdown. Well, that's the result of being a bum since I entered a Junior College, and trying to study as hard a possible when the examinations are in a months' time.

For the past two days, there was a burden on my shoulders when I went to club and drink. I went to Momo that night with beng. I met up with quite a number of people, some of which are unexpected, especially people that I've HARDLY seen them club, namely Shaun and Guang Yang. Saw Shinleng, Ruoxuan and some Secondary schoolmates, and well, Carmen and her group of friends of course. I drank and danced with Eric and his friends, while babe sat down with his brothers. The night was good. The post Rapture syndrome had reduced a little, because I was dancing for 3 hours straight. And there's one thing bad about girls wearing slippers. My toes got STEPPED, BRUSHED and it turned out BLACK. Babe could feel my pain. Haha, and indeed.

I woke up early next day and went home to get ready for shopping in town with my mother. I have officially 2 additional wishes wishlist that I could love to have. A bohemian skirt that I love at first sight and a top from Far east. I bought a pants from Forever 21 and it is beautiful. Went to Esmund's 21st Birthday buffet at Pan Pacific hotel. After eating a sumptuous meal, we head down to boat quay for drinks. Well, one of them got drunk and puked all over the pub. It wasn't only disgusting but funny too.

And I've somehow promised Yewteng to go for his birthday party tonight at CHJIMES, but well....

I started studying since 3. I practised my Stats and it's killing me. I need an A for my maths, and I'm not getting it. Time to work harder! Ciaoz.

2005-09-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

I blogged ONCE, it didn't load. I blogged TWICE, it didn't load again. I got fed up, I left the computer as it was. This totally suck!

I went out with beng today, although he's walking about in crutches. We watched "One More Chance", a Singapore film. The movie was good, very good. It showcased all the problems faced by ex-convicts in Singapore, their lives after their sentence. How things are so down that they do not feel like living. One sentence which really meant alot to me was "The court sentenced us to 10 years imprison, the society gave us the death sentence." I could imagine how the ex-convicts are being despised in the society these days. Well, to me, I shall not commit ANY crime and I will not ever ENTER the prison walls. NO WAY. I shall not blog anything that's criminal, just in case I get caught for blogging.

I miss my babe already. It has been only 3 hours since I saw him. The weekend together is really good. How I wished I could be so free again without A levels. We packed his wardrobe yesterday. Boy, the feeling was good. He actially cleared 5 plastic bags full of clothes. Can you imagine 5 plastic bags full! Some of his clothes are like 4-5 years old, which he was an infamous ah beng then. I laughed each time he tried his old clothes. It was really funny. Oh well, I used my famous ZARA skills to fold all his clothes. His wardrobe is speck clean and neat. All thanks to ME! But, he and his mummy painstakingly ironed all the clothes. So actually quite amount of hard work has been put into it. Imagine, a wardrobe full of clothes being ironed. I love his wardrobe now. I have NEVER seen it like that before. All hailed my ZARA skills. I regretted not bringing any camera there to snap a picture of it. If not I would have snapped the "BEFORE" and "AFTER" pictures. Haha.

Once again, I missed dance so badly. This picture brings back so many fond memories of dance, Rapture '04 '05. The dance studio has been a place where we got to know each and every one of us. It has been also a place where we danced, sore our feets, burned our brains, bleed, burst the blisters, cried, screamed, smile, bitch, gossip. What can I say? It has been a wonderful 1 and a half years in the studio with all of you guys. I seriously hope that all of you will come back for ALUMNI next year, especially when our performance is in Esplanade. It's like ONCE IN YOUR LIFETIME chance to ever perform there. I really hope that all of you will do well for your prelims and go to the University course that you guys want. Anyway, who wants to go to NUS DANCE ENSEMBLE concert? It's held on the 7th October. I think tickets are either $13 or $16. Let's go together? Glen says that it'll give you an outlook on how professional NUS dance ensemble is. (:

This guy, Chew Boxun, also known as Botak, has been a great friend since I was in Secondary School. He is always making me laugh with all his BHB-ness. It seems like he don't mind losing face. He's always showing me who's pretty, who's hot, who's his next target. Haha. It's really fun talking to him. I have never been interested in him, in a relationship way. He's more like a bitching partner who tells you everything that's funny. Haha. (Well, how can he be compared to beng!) I met him 2-3 weeks ago, snapped quite a number of pictures which I am TOO LAZY to load everything up to the computer. Actually wanted to collage the pictures together, but I'm TOO LAZY! Well, he turned up for Rapture'05. Bought Friday tickets but he came on Saturday. I don't know how the hell did he get hold of it. Thanks botak, although you're not botak anymore. I shall say this once again, Botak's my friend, a bitching partner, can't be compared to beng. Haha.

School's gonna reopen tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it, because I know when it's results time. It'll totally suck. Let's move on. A level's approaching in approximately 1 month odd.

2005-09-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I'm in love with my new layout.
My ever-first layout that my sister thinks it's nice.
I guess it's because of the woman,
on the left hand side of the page.
I found it online yesterday after hours of search.
Well, Beng played a big role in deciding the picture,
because while he was playing Winning Eleven,
I kept bugging him asking him for the best picture.
Haha. I'm such an ass.

This morning i was scrolling through some pictures
from the SAJC Dance blog.

I felt I've been missing out on something.
I guess it's the adrealine rush to perform,
to be backstage, to be preparing for a performance,

to make up like a doll with glitter,

to wear costumes that I can't wear on the streets,
to stay in the studio for hours to rehearse,
to bitch with zaki and the rest of the dancers.

I seriously miss all the dancers.

It seems like a LONG LONG LONG time since I saw them,
and each time I see them,
will be about 5 minutes before assembly,
and we'll be either mugging or sleeping.
It seriously can't be compared to those times,
when we see each other every single day after school,
until the wee hours at night,
where we have to CRAWL under the school gate,
to get out of school.
All those good old days. All gone.
Kept in my treasure chest,
but never to be repeated again.

It's so much better compared to studying
every single day till your brain explodes.
It's on the brink of exploding already.
The worst thing is getting fatter.
I wondered who was the one who told me that
I can slim down during my study period,
but that is so NOT true!
I'm putting on weight,
especially on my thighs and butt,
too much of sitting down and mugging.
Those times of exercising while dancing.
Ah hh h hh hh hhh ...

I miss you, SAJC DANCE

2005-09-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

I finally have the time to make this new layout
and change my blog to blogspot.
Don't ask me why am I changing,
I just feel like it. Haha.
I remembered using blogspot 3 years back,
and it IMPROVED so much!
The only thing is that it CANT store layouts like diary-x.

Prelims are finally over.
and I see red.
Not all ticks, but all zeros on my script.
Chemistry Paper 3 was so hard,
I felt like crying.
I almost gave up halfway,
but I did persevere on.
But I guess, I'll be dead.
Another F.

It's like I can predict my future.
It's ALL Fs,
and this is not a good start to predict my A levels results.

Planned to club on Friday night,
but last minute cancellation from my dear Dawn.
Hence, I stayed at home and did a fashion show from my wardrobe.
I didn't know I could mix and match so many combinations.

I'm now at Beng's house.
I've been here since yesterday.
Now i'm waiting for my parents to pick me up for breakfast.
Sometimes i hate being a girl,
CRAMPS suck.
I can't sit still without complaining it's painful.
Beng's in such a loss,
because he can't do anything about it.

I guess everyone saw my new haircut in school.
Yijun was shocked like..
"NAT! you cut your hair! I thought you were just kidding."
I guess everyone's not only shocked,
but VERY shocked.
I'm no more the curly hair girl.
My classmates said i look like a japanese.
I think I seriously should consider buying
checked skirts and long socks.
Haha.

Time really flies.
School's going to end really soon for my batch.
With that, means A levels is approaching at such a speed.
I seriously hope that time can slow down for all of us out there studying.
Well, GOOD LUCK for those that still have papers
on Monday and Tuesday,
especially my class 04S13.